Can't Make the Second Night

I've realized that this semester I've been a little slutty. I've made out with a lot of guys....or maybe that guys have been on my mind more than usual, especially at parties. Parties where you know the majority of the people...what do you do then? Find someone to hookup with. Or at parties where you don't really know anyone...what do you do? Start talking to a guy, and either make a friend or hookup with him. First I went home with Will and then I hooked up with Rob. With both of these guys, I just wanted to see again. Friends with benefits is all I'm looking for now. In want to feel secure with a friend and hookup. I do not enjoy feeling like shit after a hookup because I thought it would happen again, while he doesn't. Blahhhhhhhhhhhhh I guess I just don't understand the college relationship culture. I'm as ignorant as ever again.

Les Miserables

I haven't posted in a while...I've found myself consciously thinking that I was too busy for this. This is for recording my time and thoughts.

I'm currently listening to "I Dreamed a Dream" from Les Miserables. I have a great life. I need to appreciate that more often, but I have noticed it more and more. The movie is about a man with suffering all around him and suffering in his life. He chooses to rise above the injustice that has been put upon him and serve others his entire life.

"I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving"
Also, today I watched Silver Lining Playbook. I am now convinced that I'm like Jennifer Lawrence. She played her role fabulously!

This semester has gone by so fast it seems. I'm spending my time learning and studying. I want to start doing more new things...routine makes me uneasy....it's easy then to get stuck in a rut.

I cannot write more, this song is too depressing...goodnight.