Can't Make the Second Night

I've realized that this semester I've been a little slutty. I've made out with a lot of guys....or maybe that guys have been on my mind more than usual, especially at parties. Parties where you know the majority of the people...what do you do then? Find someone to hookup with. Or at parties where you don't really know anyone...what do you do? Start talking to a guy, and either make a friend or hookup with him. First I went home with Will and then I hooked up with Rob. With both of these guys, I just wanted to see again. Friends with benefits is all I'm looking for now. In want to feel secure with a friend and hookup. I do not enjoy feeling like shit after a hookup because I thought it would happen again, while he doesn't. Blahhhhhhhhhhhhh I guess I just don't understand the college relationship culture. I'm as ignorant as ever again.